God, I hate this feeling of distance between You and I. I put too much faith in mankind, now I'm cold and dead inside. I don't have hope, the world could watch me die and not lift a finger. Lord I need You near, I need to know You are here. I struggle to see Your presence when I am blinded by the filth of humanity. I would rather go to Heaven in my sleep than deal with the complications of life. Lord I need You near, I need to know You are here. I made a mistake by trusting man when I should have been trusting You.